Ten Days A Week

My latest Substack post ⬇️

The ideal is right where you are. They say that comparison is the thief of joy. So let's stop comparing our current circumstances to our imagined perfect life.

Thousands of steps exploring Edinburgh so far. Such a beautiful city ❤️

Sweet afternoon ❤️

• SLEEP • DEPRIVATION •

I joked on my stories earlier this week that I feel like this account has become primarily about M’s sleep patterns, but in all honesty it does feel like our lives are centred around the sleep deprivation that’s resulting from it at the moment. Apart from the newborn stage, I can’t remember ever being this relentlessly tired. I know that exhaustion pales in comparison to the sufferings and struggles of others, but it’s the season that we are in, and it’s hard.

Sometimes it’s difficult to understand why God doesn’t remove or lessen some of the things we are battling through, especially when we think we’d do a much better job at home/ work/ church if He did. I’d love to tell you I have some eloquent answer, but I don’t. Except this: the answer is always to lean further in to God, and not further away.

I really struggle with this. I’m prone to irritation, anger, giving up, wondering what the point is of trying. Sulking like a child who isn’t getting what they want.

But I have to “take every thought captive” (2 Cor 10:5) and return it to the Lord as heartfelt prayer - however counterintuitive I sometimes find this - knowing that if God has given me this season, He will also gladly give me what I need to get through it.

I’m too tired to do anything but the bare minimum practically speaking at the moment, so my priority is this: “cast your burdens upon him, because he cares for you.” (1 Peter 5:7)