Quill and Catalyst

Happy 5th monthsary, mahal. Our relationship may not be stable in this whole 5 months, but I love you still—I still notice the efforts and care that you give me.

I know that I’m not giving you the treatment you want, but I’m trying my best, I’m trying to be better. I may not be a perfect partner, but I’ll always do my best to treat you the way I know.

1 more week and we’ll have our vacation in the province mahal, I’m so excited to show you the beauty of out province.

You may hurt me as many times as you want, but please don’t do it intentionally—I’ll always forgive you, but don’t take advantage of me. I love you so muchhh mahal koo mwaaaaa😘🩶✨

Written with love
From the well of my soul to yours,

Akari.|Jvsky

These days I’ve been down and I just need someone to listen and be there for me when I’m lost in my path—I didn’t need mockery, I wanted to be seen, heard, and validated.

We live in a stressful world, we all need a tight hug and someone’s presence—Depression isn’t a joke, we don’t know what other people runs through their mind and all we have to do is be kind to them.

We are human, all our feelings are valid, we are not a robot, It’s okay to not be okay and you don’t have to carry all the burden on your own.

—Akari.Jvsky

I walk through a graveyard where the stones are blank—hounded by spirits who never drew breath, trailed by ghosts who never had a name.

Figures whispering futures that will not be told, I always dream of a portrait of us. My heart holds a garden I wanted to grow—but it’s turning into a barren land.

Small laughter, but full of happiness—I always wanted it though, ever since I was a kid. I always said that I wouldn’t want it to suffer, but into reality it seems like there’s no way for that dream portrait to arrive.

—Akari.|Jvsky

I buried many versions of myself and chased a dream that never came.

Each sacrifice gave me a result of a failure—I laugh a little less, I became weaker, and slightly less of me.

I thrived more and more even if I’m tired, I believed that I can—thinking ahead of time that all will be worth it. And still that dream never arrived.

Now I am in agony, thinking of a graveyard of dreams that is abandoned, pursued by ghosts of what I might have become. If only life had been a little more gentler.

—Akari.|Jvsky

It aches my heart that you chose to stay silent, it’s our special day—hoping that this would be our happiest day of the month, but you left me hanging, don’t know what I did, don’t know what to do.

It cuts deep inside, it’s thrusting deeper—every word I say seems no effect, I want to be happy, I want us to be happy; It’s just that you don’t seem to care anymore.

Am I still valuable? I hope I do, I hope I am.

—Akari.|Jvsky

The feeling that you don’t need to over explain everything to be understood, feelings and efforts are made and sadly wasted, Is it really appreciated?

Why do I always feel lost…

How I wish you were here right now—I can’t imagine how joyful we are if you’re here, well it all happens for a reason.

I’m happy that we are seeing each other virtually, but physically is much more happier—and the feeling that we trace our skin with our own palms just feels different.

Though this days I wish that you’re here right now, I’m genuinely happy that we’re still having a quality time even if it’s through video calls only.

—Akari.|Jvsky

Coming home to you meant so much to me—and that I am happy to travel miles away, I thought it’ll be difficult, but no, it’s easy because no matter how far if it’s you—it’ll never be as difficult as it seems.

I am happy to do this and I feel grateful that I have you—you made my life so much lighter.

When It comes to you—I wouldn’t think twice, I love you always and in all possible ways, My Boo.

Ikaw at Ikaw lang palagi🩶✨

—Akari.|Jvsky

Having a life away from you is very peaceful, Life seems so effortless when you’re not around—we are now strangers, if you’re jealous of what I have now, it doesn’t make sense that you are the cause of my success, you don’t have the right to know my happenings in life now, we are just memories that are bound to be forgotten.

Life was a barren land with you—you don’t bear fruits to my success; stop pestering my life.

Stories have been created just to wreck me, but the truth stands firm—I thank you that you have been part of my life, now doesn’t make any sense anymore, be happy with your life.

—Akari.

Do I kneel here, a question etched in shadow,
palm outstretched to catch the stars you scatter?
The moon spills salt on wounds I cannot name—
Am I a shore worth saving?

Your silence hums like a hymn I’ve misremembered.
I trace the map of my cracks,
count the fractures where love slipped through—
Did I hold too tightly? Or not enough?

But the night is not a verdict.
Even the sea, in retreat, carves constellations
into sand, teaching the earth how to breathe.
What if my worth isn’t measured in hands that stay,
but in the way I root myself to dawn’s stubborn blush—

a pulse that outlives the ache of why?

—Akari.|Jvsky