Disclosure.

🙃

“Here’s the thing, I can’t give you the world but you know I’d happily give all that I have if you ask me to. No, let me rephrase that, I’d give my best, you don’t need to ask because darling, even in my weakest point, you’re all I think about. Even in my ugliest state, I’d put you first.

Coming from a generation of lonely hearts, I’ve seen how things were ruined because it’s almost always that when something or someone does not meet their expectations, they will look for it through someone else.

My love, I know this isn’t much but I can only assure you that from the moment I decided to commit, I will try my very best to stay by your side and yes, that also means staying when there is literally just a thread to hold on to. Love is a promise, sometimes it is ugly, most days it is painful and yes often times it is not worth our trust but we can’t deny that it is indeed the best feeling there is.

Now, here’s the real thing darling, I know we often fight and think that we’ve grown tired of each other but believe me when I say that a thread is enough to hold us both. That thread, is our love and even if we argue every single day in the next coming years, I will still choose to hold on to our unsteady thread than create a new one with someone else. I know for sure that love only works if two people are willing to commit fully. We don’t choose who we love let alone every single person who tries to enter our lives but we decide when to hold on and to let go.

Lastly, this is me saying, I’m never gonna let you go. Not on my watch. Not in this lifetime because this is how I always perceived love.”
– Trixa Lei

artwork by fridacastelli

"Maturity isn't about staying to fix things while they fall. It isn't about who says sorry first or someone who admits their wrong and try to compensate. Maybe it's not about who stays to try and work things out. It isn't about who loves who more.

Maturity is being able to identify what hinders your growth as a person and letting it go.

It can have different meanings and interpretations depending on who is defining it.

But as for me, it is when you choose to walk away from situations that no longer serves you right.

So just incase this happens, I hope you forgive me, because, this time, I'd give up everything but not myself– never again."
— Trixa Lei

Artwork by Amanda Oleander