Nixi

I'VE GOT SO MUCH TO THANK HIM FOR.

Not just for the prayers He answered the way I hoped He would,
but honestly… even for the ones He didn’t.

There were things I asked for so deeply.
Things I thought was right for me.
Doors I wanted opened so badly.
People I wanted to keep.
Plans I thought had to happen.

And when He said ''NO'—or stayed silent—
I won’t pretend I always understood it.

Some of those moments hurt.
Some felt disappointing.
Some felt like He was withholding something good from me.

But TIME has a way of showing what PAIN couldn’t explain in the moment.

Looking back now, I can see HIS MERCY in those no’s.
I can see HIS PROTECTION in the closed doors.
I can see HIS LOVE in the delays that once frustrated me.

There were things I thought would HEAL me
that actually would have BROKEN me.

There were places I wanted to go
that He knew were never meant for me.

There were PRAYERS I cried over
that I now thank Him for not answering.

And if I’m honest, some of His greatest blessings in my life
came disguised as disappointment first.

So yes, I’ve got so much to THANK JESUS for.

Not just for every YES—
but for every NO that saved me,
every delay that shaped me,
and every closed door that led me somewhere better.