Dr. Isaiah Mapuk Matou

Medical School Changes You… And It’s Hilariously Painful

Nobody tells you this: medical school is lonely.
You’re surrounded by people but somehow… still alone.
Everyone’s stressed, everyone’s tired.
You smile, you joke, you post normal pictures…
while internally thinking: “Please let me pass this exam and eat today.”

You get really good at pretending you’re okay.
“Fine, sir/ma.”
“Nothing, ma.”
Laughing while dying inside.
Your friends think you’re cool.
Your phone thinks you ghost it.

Then comes South Sudan pressure: “You are the hope of the family!”
Yes, you.
If you fail, the village cries.
If you sleep, it’s laziness.
If you eat, it’s luxury.
You can’t quit. You can’t cry. You just… endure.

And the money struggle? Don’t get me started. 💸
Borrowing transport fare like it’s an exam question.
Skipping meals to buy handouts.
Praying your stethoscope doesn’t die before you do.
Hunger + Anatomy = the ultimate life lesson.

Then reality hits: medicine isn’t a sprint, it’s a marathon.
You stop comparing yourself.
You start competing with yourself.
You learn pacing > panic.
Rest > burnout.
And caffeine > everything.

Finally, you look in the mirror.
You laugh less loudly.
Care more strategically.
Survive more efficiently.
You didn’t just become a doctor-in-training…
You became version 2.0: tired, disciplined, broke, but still standing.

Medical school changes you.
Silently. Slowly. Painfully.
And somehow… hilariously. 😭🩺

Wolves in Sheep’s Clothing Within the Government
There is a growing and deeply troubling reality within our system of governance: individuals who present themselves as loyal to President Salva Kiir Mayardit on the surface, yet quietly work for the downfall of his regime behind closed doors. These are wolves in sheep’s clothing—smiling in public, pledging loyalty, but acting contrary to what they tell our President.
Many patriotic citizens who genuinely carry this country in their hearts have been deliberately blocked, sidelined, and silenced. Meanwhile, those causing the greatest harm to the nation remain protected. Worse still, some of these individuals actively incite citizens against President Kiir’s government, poisoning public opinion while pretending to defend it.
It is unfortunate that some people are not in government to serve the people, but to enrich themselves. One is left to ask: where on earth does a public official build a godly mansion for himself while the office he works in resembles an abandoned tukul in a remote village? This contradiction clearly exposes misplaced priorities and betrayal of public trust.

Arrogance in public office has reached levels that words can hardly describe. Instead of humility, accountability, and service, some officials display pride, contempt, and detachment from the suffering of ordinary citizens. This behavior fuels public anger and weakens confidence in the government.
President Kiir deserves to know the truth about those around him—those who undermine his leadership while pretending to be loyal. It is only by exposing such elements that the government can be strengthened and the nation protected from internal sabotage.

We will continue to support President Salva Kiir wherever necessary, but support does not mean silence in the face of wrongdoing. True loyalty means speaking the truth, defending the nation’s interests, and standing against corruption, arrogance, and deception within the system.