A. Lynn

It's 1:30 in the afternoon, I'm on my third cup of coffee because I'm trying to achieve a new high score on my anxiety level as I work on these rewrites with a migraine, schedule more testing for my youngest, and finish my latest personal pilot in the background of the chaos. Oh, yeah, and prepare to host a contest with some friends of the fanfiction variety because I am a nerd of epic proportions (DON'T JUDGE ME!)

My sister absolutely crushed her latest balloon competition and I couldn't be prouder, I have had interest in my chalk art and window painting pour in for spring and summer, so that whole pre-boom? It's looking like there may not be a pre-anything after my cousin's upcoming nuptials. But hey, that's what coffee is for, right? I'll sleep when I'm dead!

I know this all sounds like a lot of complaining intermingled with humble-bragging, and maybe it is (it totally is), but it's mostly just overwhelm because I never thought I'd ever be here. If Little A could see me now? She'd burst into tears. Likely a mix of the "I'm so happy" and "But why aren't we an actress" variety because she'd be horribly double-dipped while A of just ten years ago would be in shock that not only did we survive, we *thrived*.

I remember thinking I was crazy just eight years ago when I set forth to publish my first book. I had no idea if it would lead anywhere, if I'd succeed, if it'd do well; I was just a late twenties idiot with a dream of doing something before I turned thirty. And I did it. It was a dumpster fire. But I did it. Now I'm working on doing something again before I turn forty. It will likely *also* be a dumpster fire, but I will do it. And that's what matters. Then again, maybe the dumpster fire has already happened and I'm in the clear and it's only up from here. Only time will tell.

For now, I'm ready to keep pushing myself to learn, to try new things, and to put myself out there in uncomfortable ways in the name of "main character energy". After all, if I'm not the main character of the story of my life, who is?

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