Sarah Sati

Years ago, after another failure at love with a man, I made a choice to marry myself.

One of the better choices I’ve ever made.

It was then that I started adjusting my perspective on love, listening to love songs as though they were me singing to me.

I stopped putting all of my energy into men and the outcome of relationships with them and I began learning how to direct that energy towards myself.

I took myself on dates, just me and me, where we did whatever I wanted in meaningful connection with each other. It was hard at first, but overtime I became my own favorite date, my own best companion.

From this self work, the flower of a deep inner love affair bloomed.

I have a lot of karma related to self love and the development of it, alongside my capacity to be in romantic relationship with other.

I share this with you, my friends, in case this is the same for you.

It is no easy task to turn the desire for love from outside inward and ask questions like: how can I show up better for me, how can I see the love I need is within me to give to myself?

It’s possible, beautiful people, and the journey towards deep self love, although littered with tears, is as beautiful a journey as I have ever traveled.

Happy Valentine’s Day to you and only you. Not to you and your partner, but just you. Just you alone. You alone are enough, are perfect as is. No other required ❤️

Our ability to know what we are doing when we cannot see what we are doing is one of the gifts of the practice.

This skill begins with asking questions and looking for answers within the mind. Where is my right leg when I cannot see it? Is my wrist really in line with me shoulder on the arm that is behind me.

Eventually the skill translates to the mind. Where is my mind in this moment while I am reading this book? What emotion is living underneath this reaction to this external circumstance?

In this natural way we develop deep intuitive awareness. We learn to sense subtle energy movements.

It’s a gift of the practice but it is not the aim.

We don’t want to go into the practice wishing for the gifts. And when the gifts come we don’t want to confuse them as the aim and let our practice end there.

Gifts, like everything else, come and go. Clinging to them destroys our practice and disconnects us from our deeper potential and our ability to advance.

If we want to live our most rich and authentic life we have to learn to never get distracted by the shinny things and to never get caught up in the s**t.

Just see where we are at, give thanks, cry if we need to and move along. That’s it. Not special. Just part of the flow.

The first new moon of 2023. What are you going to fast from?

That’s the question I’m asking myself.

My 2023 has started with more questions than answers. Plans have changed and priorities have shifted and I’m currently riding the waves of total uncertainty and deep introspection.

Confusion is the beginning of great awakening.

This new moon I allow myself to be confused. To have too much thinking and too little understanding, and this is clarity.

Cloudiness is clarity in disguise, if you didn’t know.

So while I may or may not fast from food for the new moon, I will certainly fast from the things that ate haunting me. These things are all conceptual. All narrative.

For instance, the narrative that my value is based on what you think of me, or how much money I can make, or how many friends I have or likes my posts get or the amount of content I can create.

The narrative that I need to be someone special; I’m for sure fasting from that.