Isitjosh

15 months ago my story almost came to an early end. Choosing to continue it was not easy. I found lower lows before I found the highs. I worked with a team of professionals to sort out my polypharma nightmare. This was not easy. Every single day has been a new challenge. I disappeared and let everything I worked so hard for slip away.

But I think it was necessary tbh. I had to break. My whole life has been like walking on thin ice. I needed it to shatter. I had to take the icy plunge, so that I could experience the joy of coming up for air.

Today is 15 months since I decided to stay. 14 months of continuous effort. 12 months of therapy. 8 months tapering off benzos. I have met new people, made new friends, experienced love, I've been creative, and I've been ALIVE.

Thanks for being here, thank you for supporting me. I hope this helps explain why I have been so absent and inconsistent. As a mental health advocate I felt like a fraud coming on here and lying to you all about my own mental health. Things got bad. But they are getting better.

I am alive. I am here. I am loved, and I am capable of loving.

And so are you. I love you all.

- Josh

Shout all my friends - but especially & for being my best friends, tour mates, and producers. for being my friend and rock in Philly. And for pushing me to be a better version of myself (and to eat fruit and veggies)