Stephanie Stone

happy Friday 💖

here's an old photo of my Aqua from a Fanime years ago (2019?)

cosplay by me, prop by a Miku Hatsune
photo by

I wasn't sure how I'd look as Raven but I like it a lot more than I expected! casual Raven aka inspired, and classic Teen Titans Raven too! she also felt fitting for the other thing I wanted to share 💜

last slide is a pic I posted to my story and after sleeping on it (and reading all your sweet responses 😭) I decided I wanted to post it here too, in case others feel inspired or motivated by it as well:

regarding gym - I've only gone for a month now, but it's my first time going consistently since the Dark Times.

there's so much that goes into it tbh; being able to work out again, on *my own terms*, means SO much to me and is another significant milestone in my healing journey.

tbh, the bachelorette party at the rage room started it lmao. I felt like I was not only breaking the s**t out of junk, but also breaking the chains that I felt had held me down. I felt like pent up anger at how I was treated was being released, and now I utilize working out to continue working through this (surprisingly deep to me) rage.

I did so much work these last 4 years, reading, researching, reflecting, journalling, doing breathwork, doing yoga, getting still and quiet with myself, and that was all very *good*, especially to process most of tbe things...but this feels like the final piece.

because now when I look in the mirror, I'm not seeing some idealized version of myself meant to feed algorithms and sate this fleeting, illusionary feeling of "success" or "making it". now, I see how coming to terms with my anger can now genuinely make me stronger. and I LOVE it.
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I buried my anger because I NEVER wanted to be anything like the worst thing that ever happened to me. I never wanted to be anything close to a monster who weaponized their anger to hurt other people until they were satisfied. but when I unearthed my rage in that safe space, it finally clicked in my head that I could never ever be that kind of person anyways because that monster wasn't because of the emotion, it was just who they were all along. So I let myself feel, and I feel free.

Hello friends! Doing my best to catch up to things now that the con has happened 💕 Thanks so much again to everyone who tipped for it and for all the love for Tifa! I'll work on sending out the prints soon (keep an eye on your Kofi inbox if I don't have your address!) and I may put some extra prints up for sale on my Ko-Fi shop :)

☆ Sunday 06/04 ☆ No Event
♡ Monday 06/05 ♡ Danganronpa V3: Killing Harmony -- 5PM EDT
☆ Tuesday 06/06 ☆ No Event
♡ Wednesday 06/07 ♡ No Event
☆ Thursday 06/08 ☆ Summer Game Fest Co-Stream Pizza Party + FATAL FRAME: Mask of the Lunar Eclipse Remastered -- 6PM EDT
♡ Friday 06/09 ♡ The Legend of Zelda: The Wind Waker Randomizer -- 6PM EDT
☆ Saturday 06/10 ☆ Disco Elysium -- 6PM EDT

I should hopefully be caught up on Patreon rewards by end of day today as well! My goals for the month of June are to upload the build logs for Ada and a mini log for the teenie upgrades I made to Tifa; my Patreon was originally meant to be a place for me to write explanations about how I've made certain things for those that were curious and wanted to support me, and I'd love to get back to that if possible :') Especially with how tumultuous the world of content creation can be.

Also, tomorrow is Summer Game Fest! I always liked co-streaming these events and doing a little pizza watch party, so if you're down, come vibe! Otherwise the VOD will be available on my channel once my broadcast is over like always :)

i've been so busy lately that I dropped the ball with the schedule last week, but here is this week's! Mostly the same, though no DE stream Saturday since I'll be at Fan Expo Philly :)))

☆ Sunday 05/28 ☆ Disco Elysium - 6PM EDT
♡ Monday 05/29 ♡ Danganronpa V3: Killing Harmony -- 5PM EDT
☆ Tuesday 05/30 ☆ No Event
♡ Wednesday 05/31 ♡ No Event
☆ Thursday 06/01 ☆ FATAL FRAME: Mask of the Lunar Eclipse Remastered -- 6PM EDT
♡ Friday 06/02 ♡ The Legend of Zelda: The Wind Waker Randomizer -- 6PM EDT
☆ Saturday 06/03 ☆ Fan Expo Philadelphia as Tifa Lockhart from Final Fantasy VII Remake

I also noticed that my video queue has stopped on YouTube! I. Will rectify that ASAP; I do have some videos in the queue but haven't had time to write descriptions/make thumbs/etc, plus I am still SO so behind on Patreon ;w; my apologies! I will get things back and running as soon as I can. I also would love to make a build log here on FB, as I have build logs on Twitter for the things I am currently working on...but! In the meantime, thank you for your patience and support, as always