Learning How to Love While Being Divorced

I'm struggling this week. My husband is treating me poorly, and I just don't understand why. He is already leaving me, why treat me poorly too?

Today of all things, our kitchen everything drawer made me have complex emotions… I organize it every three months or so but my husband throws everything in, and it never stays organized. When he leaves, this drawer will stay organized. Feels almost painful. All because I opened a drawer! Has anyone experienced complex emotions over an everyday thing too during a divorce?