Clarke Family Missions-Costa Rica

What am I feeling? It feels a bit surreal to be sitting on this plane with my sister headed to Costa Rica! I am so full of excitement to see people in CR but still feel raw in parts of myself. As I look out into these clouds I think of Kelly and it puts a smile on my face and tears in my eyes to think I can be so close to him yet still far away. I know he would be very proud of me for taking this huge step by going back to CR so soon. I am a bit nervous but I have this great anticipation in my heart of what God is doing that I can’t do anything else but keep moving forward regardless of how I feel! It’s not feelings that are gonna reach people it’s Gods amazing love and sovereignty of how He is gonna work! I am a willing vessel that desires so desperately to be used no matter how! When you come to terms that life really isn’t about you and never has been but it’s about the life you live through Jesus so others can be lead to know the true heart of God. It takes a heart that is willing to be vulnerable and not complacent. THAT is not easy because we live in a society that the very focus is self. Anything that can fill what we need quickly is what we really are consumed with. So how do we change that mentality? We have to start with self. Meaning what we THINK we really need we don’t! It’s more called a want and we THINK we deserve it so we will manipulate it anyway we need so we can have it. Then we wonder why our happiness doesn’t last or we of course probably move onto something else. If we want change then we need to make change! We can start by asking God to help us. I believe if you truly have a heart that loves God and you desire to really change then HE and ONLY He can help you. It’s in the baby steps that we begin to make progress. One day it’s baby steps then the next thing you know your taking a leap like me and choosing to keep moving forward even when it doesn’t all feel good. yet this overwhelming surge of excitement begins to build up in you and BOOM.....others around you begin getting so touched all because you CHOSE to take a step toward obedience to Jesus!

Just wanted to inform everyone that I am flying to Costa Rica tomorrow at 7:35 AM with my sister. We will be there 6 days and fly back home on Wednesday Dec. 14th. We will be getting some things we had left there as well as be visiting some friends and get to be apart of our Tuesday night prayer meeting we helped start there. I’m asking for your prayers as we travel and for divine appts to take place. I’m so excited to declare how our God has so graciously and sovernly been with me and the kids every step of the way! I believe the time is now and the harvest is ready! Thank you all for your continued love, support and prayers! I can’t wait to share what God does! Much love to you all!!!❤️❤️

My heart still stands in a state of awe of all God has done and is still doing in our family since Kelly's passing. I want to tell each and everyone of you THANK YOU for your constant prayers...love...support and for all the heart-felt comments you leave for me and our kids. I have come to realize this is not an easy road to continue on but in reality nothing is easy in life and death is inevitable for each of us one day. So the hope we have to hold onto is the hope of knowing one day we will be together again in heaven. I thank God every day that Kelly made a decision to not only follow God's heart but to make a conscious decision to do so every day. Does that mean he was perfect...absolutely not...neither of us were! 20 years of marriage we had to fight for! Two people becoming one yet your still two individuals. Add hormones on a level of young and old lol and you get a mix of small stupid arguments and humongo massive knock out drag out arugements ending in a separation where we were both done! We both had to make a decision....is it worth yet?? Hell yes!!! We knew the plans God had for our family were greater than the destruction the enemy wanted to do! So we fought hard together instead of against each other for our marriage and our family!! I thank God every day we had that time together in Costa Rica as a family!! Do I wish I had the chance to hold him a bit tighter and kiss him a bit longer..absolutely! My heart will always ache for him cuz that's a testament of how real our love was! BUT GOD.......His perfect love for us is so much greater...how can we deny that??? To say there is no God is to say love doesn't exist! Yet...all believe in love....so what love are YOU believing in???

God’s love is steadfast and unchanging
God’s love comforts us
God’s love is revealed to us through Jesus Christ
God’s love is poured into us through the Holy Spirit
God’s love compells us to love one another
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I am in awe of what God did and is still doing through Kellys Celebration Service yesterday!! We want to thank each one of you for your love and support and for being apart of something so much greater that God is still unfolding! Our minds are still in surreal mode but yet as we continue to put one foot in front of the other and keep moving forward and lean hard into God cuz He isnt going anywhere...we will get through this with Him and each other! I am receiving testament after testament of how Gods loving presence was so evident and strong yesterday...thats what it is all about...allowing Him to come in no matter how things look or how they feel! Each one of you whether you could be there or not has such a special place in our families heart! Making the step to move back here right now has shown me that we are definitely surrounded by so many people that truly do have a heart for me and our kids. The strength and peace in that is crazi amazing!! I don't think any words could express enough our gratitude to each one of you. My heart is overwhelmed by the power of the Lords great love!!! 💗💗💗

Kelly and Pastor Manuel.....Brothers in Christ forever 💗💗

It was a pleasure and honor to work with Manuel at a childrens Christmas outreach yesterday in San Rafael, Heredia. It was great to see smiles on the parents and kids faces as we handed out each and every gift to all the kids that came. But the greatest gift was seeing 15 children give their life to the Lord. To God be the Glory! 💗