Some Thoughts

I can't even recognise myself anymore.
I became a different person I don't know.

How does it feel to be happy,
when I can't even remember the last time I was?
How do you learn to love,
when your life has only ever revolved around pain?

How do you have fun,
when the feeling is foreign —
when numbness became the norm?
There’s so much I want to experience,
but I can’t shake the weight
of feeling like a burden.

- I need it to stop.
-- you need what to stop?
- I need everything to stop.
-- what do you mean?
- Thh.. That pain inside me, it's eating me slowly from inside in silence like a monster...

She didn't believe anyone could truly love her.
It felt as if something dark and heavy resided.
Within her, whispering all day that she was unworthy.
She wore scares like armor, convinced they
Made her undeserving of love.