Chasing The Tribe

The wildest thing about motherhood is how it can break you and build you all in the same breath.

I stood in this field holding the baby I grew inside me, watching my oldest daughter hold her with this instinctive tenderness… and it hit me. I’m the bridge between these two little souls. The beginning of their story. The safe place they return to.

And yet, some days I don’t feel like enough.
I lose my patience.
I grieve the version of me I used to be.
I stare at the chaos and feel like I’m drowning in the noise and the need.

But then there are these moments,soft, fleeting, full of light, where everything slows down.
Where I see them.
Where I see me.

Not the perfect mum.
Not the one who’s always calm or organised or thriving.
But the one who keeps showing up, who keeps loving through it all.

If you’re in the thick of it too…
If you’re tired and touched out and wondering if you’re doing any of it right
You’re not alone.
You’re doing better than you think.
And these babies of ours? They just want us. Messy, tired, real us.

💬 Tell me what’s been breaking you and building you lately in motherhood? I want to hear it. I want to hold space for it. Let’s be that kind of village here.

✨ Two whole months of River Rae ✨

Our girl is two months earthside and what a little light she is. Sleeping through the night (still shocked), smiling those big gummy smiles, and cooing like she’s already got stories to tell 🥹

Breastfeeding has become such a huge part of our days fully on demand, and it’s going so well. We’ve fed in the park, in the car, in quiet corners of car parks… things that would’ve made me panic not long ago. But we’re doing it. And I’m actually enjoying it.

It feels like healing especially after not really getting to breastfeed with Evie, my first baby, who I mostly exclusively pumped for. Different journeys, but both full of love.

And now, seeing Evie step into the role of big sister… it’s the most beautiful chaos. She adores her, and River lights up whenever she hears her voice.

Happy two months, River Rae 🌙
You’ve changed everything and somehow made it all feel more like home. 🩷