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My Angel 😇

120 days since we spent the full day together and seeing our Grandkids.
Now all I have left is this memorial of you and memories....

Everyone talks about you which I love and people send photos all the time of memories.

All I feel is overwhelming sence of hurt, loss and unknown future.
I miss us so much Leroy D Joseph
Why were u robbed so early from me.
We had so many plans
Im trying to do stuff...
I went out alone last night to see the story of the Dubliners which was brilliant but I cried through most of it.
You would normally be holiday my hand during the show... I missed that
I MISS you so much darling 😢 💔💔

Today I decided to venture out on my own.
All my children were busy and friends so it was time to pull up my big girl pants and try and do something me and Leroy D Joseph would of done together... it was horrible (for me anyway) its was busy and stalls were good and the music, people were having fun
But for me it was awful, i felt like everyone was looking at me, saying look at her ( I know they weren't) but I just felt like that.
I went out today with good intentions but came home quiet down and distraught.
I cooked my belly pork and made pork crackling.
So this day is over thank goodness...
Back to work... its the only thing that takes my mind off this life im in right now