Allisn

Long, Emotional Post 💚🌿
I have always tried to be very intentional about the songs I write, always trying to speak truth directly from my heart, even if it means being vulnerable, and openly sharing about difficult personal experiences. Although every song I’ve written is meaningful to me, this song might be the most meaningful of all.
When I was 14 years old, having spent my entire life in Austria, my family was kicked out of our church and were suddenly forced to leave. We spent several months moving from place to place, sleeping in different motels every night trying to figure out where to go next. Up until this point in my life, Austria was home, and really all I knew. It felt like such a deep loss. During that time, I remember telling myself that I would never get so attached to a place ever again, for fear of feeling that type of loss again. This experience, I believe, was subconsciously what drove a lot of my decisions in my 20s, and acted as the catalyst for who I became as a person.
A lot of my 20s have been spent moving around from place to place, and spending significant amounts of time traveling the world. Although I am extremely grateful for these experiences (and wouldn’t have it any other way), over the years, I feel I have established too many emotional heart connections to too many places that has resulted in me often feeling extremely lost in the world, like I don’t really belong anywhere. I have spent a lot of my adulthood confused about my identity, where I am from, and where I fit in in this world. This feeling of ”searching“ has led to countless sleepless and anxious nights over the years, so deeply desiring to “belong” somewhere and to claim a place as my home.
More recently, I have come to terms with the fact that I don’t think I’ll ever feel fully at home anywhere, and that my heart will always be in multiple different places at a time, something that feels at times difficult to accept, but that I am intentionally learning to embrace.
This song is for all my third culture kids, expats, nomads, travelers, immigrants, or anyone who has ever felt lost between two or more worlds/cultures, or like they don't really fit in. You’re not alone 💚

Link to full video:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4PhOgwLYFTw

Something sweet coming to you soon 🌴🌻🌞