Charlie Carrel

Putting on the pretence of aristocracy. Playing the game so we can change the rules.

I am finally feeling like me again. This time more me than I've ever been ❤

The last few months left me mostly in a disconnected state, where I distracted myself through purely intellectual tasks, avoiding embodying my experiences.

The general proclivities of many people, especially men living in modernity, is to disconnect from their emotions. We come up with names and labels for this phenomenon when it becomes extreme - Socioapthy, Narcissistic Personality Disorder, Empathy Deficit - but it exists on a spectrum.

People on both sides of the feeling and non-feeling spectrum often don't know the others exist. Those who feel deeply and viscerally can't imagine seeing a sunset without a warm tingling sensation in their body. Those who don't embody their emotions are, more often than not, unaware that anything is different about them.

If you want to connect with your emotions, pay attention to what makes you connect with your body. Ask yourself 'what is blocking me from feeling?'. Spend time visualising a life where you are completely connected. Remove toxic or dangerous influences from your life and immerse yourself in trustworthy company.

I have experienced the extremities both ends of the spectrum. Personally, I would never wish to go back to unfeeling. I love adventure, and there are few things as adventurous as diving head first in the depths of the human experience.