Seed to Sequoia by Ruth

“EVERYTHING WILL BE FINE”

For about 20 years, this has been a silent promise that showed up and continues to show up loudly in all my affairs. Every time I worry, every time I despair, even when it’s a temptation lurking within the recesses of my mind, I hear this still small voice, “everything will be fine.”
Sometimes I let the chaos in. I wonder. I try with limited human understanding to trace how the things I’ve seen, the things I have hoped for, waited for, believed for, decreed will come to be…
It makes no sense how it will happen, yet, I hear again without blame, without accusation for not believeing even when His words have come to pass for the over 1,040,601,600 seconds that I’ve had life… “Everything will be fine”. On some days, I say Lord, I just desire to know what you’re saying about this 👀. What is your word? I’ll be fine with your verdict… He gently leads my heart to remember all the times He said to me, “everything will be fine.”
I sigh.
Sometimes, I think that’s too simple for the gravity of the weights. Here is a reminder for you as much as it is for me: God has spoken a million times over. Truly, if you have His word for your life, if you know His words to you, you can trust Him. The gravity of any weight is inconsequential where God is involved. It doesn’t matter at all.
Nothing has ever caught Him off guard. He makes all things beautiful. He made you beautiful and He is by your side to bring His words to pass.
Hold on to what you have received.

With love,
Ruth.

18 years ago today, I asked Jesus to be my Lord and Savior.

I was born into a Christian home and I was raised as one. I did not really ask what it meant to be Christian but I got my understanding from teachings and lessons were ever around me and from a witness in my own spirit. I believed in Jesus and dare I say, I loved Him. I had the kind of enthusiasm (however misguided 😅) that made me say at 5 or maybe 7 years, that if I sinned anymore or didn’t live in a particular kind of way, something horrible should happen to me (anyone else have that experience? 🤣🙈😮‍💨).
I truly wanted to live for God. I wanted my life to be given completely to Him but there was so much more to what I had known and had been taught.

On the night of June 30, 2006, (it was a Friday if I recall), I was lying on my bunk bed. My faith in God up till then had been a guiding light. God’s mercies and help had been my covering. I was an example to others in words and conduct but I remembered that I had been taught that a personal relationship with God required a personal confession. It was first a personal decision ; not an inherited gene.

There, in the quietness of our hostel, I asked for God’s forgiveness of my sins, confessed that I believed in the Lord Jesus, asked Him to come into my life, be my Lord and Savior…
I wanted proof that this was the real deal. I knew what the Bible said but I wanted proof that if I had given my life to Him, He had accepted me… 🤦🏽‍♀️😄

My journey as a child of God from a place of personal choice and conviction is the most profound experience of my life. I have learned so much and many times, I know (it seems?) I haven’t scratched the surface of what more there is to know.

This intimate dance with the Father keeps bringing me to the place of surrender, the place of a washing, a purification, an infilling, a sending forth.
Falling into the depths of love: the origin, source, wellspring of love. the depths of knowledge that reveal how everything that I need for life and for Godliness has been provided…
Washing. Pruning. Edifying.

To be continued…

Seed to Sequoia by Ruth

7 Years Ago Today…
We got our final certificates and medical license and my journey since then has been a roller coaster of some sorts. 😄🎉
Hear me out. I know when we say roller coaster, we often picture tough, rough, etc. but a roller coaster isn’t just that. It’s a mix of funny moments, absolutely hilarious moments, moments you think you’re going to die a horror death even when you’re well strapped in, and moments when you’re terrified yet assured that you’re properly strapped in.
It’s saying you’re not getting on that ride if you survive it, yet, willingly giving your money to someone to let you go on that ride. Again.

7 years ago, I got my first certification as a medical doctor and exactly 7 years later, I’m sitting in the room courtesy of with some of Africa’s leading impact leaders because I love the business of social impact and I want to see more social impact businesses (yeah) get it right😄, I’m building 😮‍💨 😅 , and still trusting that God DID NOT make a mistake with the things He showed me or told me years ago; trusting that He did not make a mistake when He inspired ideas 💡 within me.

I sometimes thought I was going to be a pediatric neurosurgeon. I loved the complexity of it. I loved that during surgeries, my hands are the steadiest that they’ve ever been. If I was unsure of this, my time in pediatric surgery in Austria convinced me. I wanted private practice in psychotherapy too…

7 years has been a lot. I’ve moved countries, moved states, moved homes. I’ve taken career turns, experienced transitions in my relationships and communities and hey! even in the process of changing names.
I’ve moved away from so many things that I’ve known and plunged into many deeps. I’ve failed. A lot. A whole lot, but I’ve also won in many ways. I’ve outgrown a lot of who I used to be and even that is a story many days will have to carry.

I still have a lot of uncertain days but if there’s anything I’m experiencing and learning to embrace in faith (obedience) and thanksgiving, it is this: The answers will come. Some answers are here but not in the ways I thought. Not everything is clear in the moment but I am led. There is more. And while I make it through, this life that I have today is not a dress rehearsal. It’s the real deal.

God expects, God has provided that I steward it diligently and with joy.

Seed to Sequoia by Ruth

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Super happy to be writing and sharing again!

Reconciling Relationships Seed to Sequoia is an analogy to the process of transformation of a young, wise, girl called Ruth and relationships will always be a fundamental part of her life

I’m really excited for every new beginning that this month has birth. Things will definitely spring forth. I’m not sure I can say they’ll spring forth ‘just like that’ because a good number of things have gone into the ground but, yes, they’ll surely spring forth. I hope that you are full of hope, faith, love that necessitates the birth of new beginnings for you.

You may feel like you didn’t do well enough in previous days, months, or years past. Know this:you are the embodiment of experiences and these experiences can still birth a worthy manifestation. (Story for another day).

I’m grateful for the blessing of being led and planted under a teacher of God’s word and how through these teachings, practical Christian living is really that: true and practical

I’m grateful for the community that I’ve been given; the blessing of being able to rise so high and fall so low, yet, have them present through the seasons of balance and elevation. To have come to a place where I’m gradually letting it be okay that community at this time doesn’t include everyone or everything that I thought would be a part of it. (This is still hard sometimes) 😮‍💨

I’m grateful for having an accountable system. The experience of being held accountable isn’t always fun in the moment (I could talk about this as an article of its own) but I’m an improved version of myself and I can give better because of this.

I’m grateful for the opportunity to create positive impact, build generational wealth, and smash ceilings with like-minded people and particularly, through every service/value I offer currently under:ng






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Whatever God is doing with me, I’m yielding to Him and here for life in full, patience through training and gratitude through it all.

There’s no better time for you & me to shine as light than now. ✨

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