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AN OPEN LETTER TO THE ONE I HATE"
To the one I hate but makes me smile.
To the one I hate but makes me laugh.
To the one I hate but makes me to look for him, If he's not around.
To the one I wanted to be with but I couldn't. (Coz you don't want to be with me - That's the fact #1.)
To the one I wanted to talk to but I have no words to say so. (Coz you don't want to talk to me - That's the fact #2.)
To the one whose joke is so corny to me before, but now it's the best joke to laugh for. ("Or maybe it's just because of you.")
To the one I hate to see before, but now seeing him is the happiness of my eyes. ("Oh I see, specially when you smile")
To the one who's just nobody to me become special to me and now inspires me.
So I could say now that the table is being turned. ("Before and After")
I didn't imagine that you would mean something to me.
I did not plan to admire you and let you become part of my life. (And I really don't want it! - That's the fact #3.)
How could I end this feeling? I don't know! Just like why I like you and why I am feeling this way to you? (I just don't know! -That's the fact #4)
But I know that I feel something to you when you call me on my second name "" If you just don't call me on that name, then I would not feel something to you. ("It just started here! Please don't call me "" again so that I could say that it ended up here!")
I just want you to know that my second name is very special to me, and then you call me on that name so I feel special too. (Eventhough I'm just nobody to you. -That's the fact #5)
We're not even so 'close' even as "friends". You only talk to me on Sunday and when Monday or the other day comes, you've just walked away and passed me by without any emotions, words or something. (You've just ignored me as if you haven't see me eventhough you do. -That's the fact #6)
Eventhough I hate what I'm feeling, I couldn't blame you for it because in the first place, you don't know, you don't care and you didn't asked for it. (It was just voluntarily felt by my heart but your not volutarily to accept it. -That's the fact #7)
So to the one that I really hate is not you, it's me! I really hate myself because I couldn't imagine myself admiring someone I really don't want to admire to. So it really happens in life? (I never thought of it before. Thought of you? No! Never ever before. -That's the fact #8)
And I never had a crush on you, even before. It just happen now. I don't know if you already know that you're my crush but if you already know it, just act as if you don't care. I mean you really don't care so you don't have to act. Just be yourself okay?
But to be honest, I really hate your attitude. (So it's not totally you. -That's the fact #9)
But eventhough I hate your attitude, the way you talk or communicate, the way you treat other people including me, the way you ignored me most of the time, the way... and too many ways. If you just know! But despite of those negatives on you that makes me to hate you, I don't know why I'm still admiring you and still have a crush on you? (Oh why? -That's the fact #10)
Why I'm still admiring you? "I hate it! " (I hate what I'm feeling for you! -That's the fact #11)
To the one I hate is myself. - That's the fact #12
To the one I hate is what I feel! - That's the fact #13
And I think it's time to set myself free from hatred and from something that I don't deserved to feel.
So goodbye and thanks for being part of my life. (The Joker, Mr. Chinito, Moreno, Guitarist and Believer, K!) I just want you to know that you mean something to me eventhough I'm just nothing to you (and will stay as nothing to you. That's the fact #14)
"I become happy to what I've felt for you before but I will be happier today if I would not feel something special anymore for you."
I'm so tired of being hurt. Happiness is a choice. (And my happiness was not found on you. -That's the fact #15) Because I always end up being so deeply hurt. So it's time now to heal my heart by knowing that I'm loved even without anyone or without you.

Unappreciated
Tigaon
SVC