If I Could Roll Back The Time

I want to say I'm sorry for many reasons left unsaid
I want to say
I miss you and the life that we once led
I want to be forgiven and forgive myself as well

I want to hold my head up high and no longer sit and dwell
How do you learn to love yourself after perfecting self-hate?

I want to shout ' I miss you so' yet knowing I'm too late
So much time has already passed but one thing remains
The thought of you brings warmth to me and that will never change
We all make mistakes in life, Lord knows I've made a few
Please know that doesn't change the fact I truly cared for you
The love we shared may have been brief, and now it's just our past
But the impact that you have left on me will forever last
No matter where we go from here, no matter where we've been
What I miss most of all, is not my lover, it's my friend

Tears crumble down my cheeks.
My mouth moves but I don't speak.
Hold my breath and count to ten.
Open my eyes, tears roll down again.

Blood falls dripping onto the floor.
Cuts open, stitch them back once more.
Hair falls loose and my fingers shake,
Middle of the night,nightmares erupt and I awake.

Hoping to be set free from this pain,
Find the key and unlock this chain.
My heart doesn't beat locked in its chest,
I wont be forgotten and I shall try my best.

Don't leave me behind in your past,
Set me free, let me breathe at last.
Falling like an angel sent from the skies,
Cover up my scars with all those lies.

Look around and see what I can't see,
Grow up to be what I will never be,
Breathe the air I will not live to breathe,
And take my place in life as I leave .