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Pardon for my inconsistent hair posts, life have been bittersweet. I’m learning to breathe under water.

On Mother’s Day (May 14th 2023), I found out I was pregnant. What a wonderful surprise and gift to receive. I was in disbelief and excited to get a positive pregnancy test. I had a good feeling this one was it but I was wrong. We hoped to share the happy news of our baby's birth soon. Instead, we lost our son/daughter to miscarriage on May 21st at 6wks. I revisited the pain I didn’t want to feel again and cried heavily.

Though this loss has left us saddened, we find solace in knowing that we are not alone. Many couples have experienced similar hardships, and we take comfort in their stories of resilience and healing.

Coincidentally, this month is one year anniversary of my 1st miscarriage. As deeply personal and sensitive matter, I want to honor my 2 Angel Babies. I’m working through my emotions but it’ll take time.

We would appreciate your continued prayers and positive thoughts as we navigate the grief and healing process. We are hopeful that, in time, we will find the strength to move forward and continue on our journey.

Thank you for your love and support!

“Before I carried the pain, I carried you. And in my heart, I carry you still”

“To the world you are a Mother, but to your Family you are the World” Happy Mother’s Day!

Photo: Pregnant Me 👉 Wifey Me 👉 Mommy Me 🥰🥹

:: Interrupting my Hair Posts to share something Personal ::

Today, marks 2 months since we lost our Angel Baby

I took this photo after I found out I was pregnant with my 2nd. I was planning to send it to my friends and family after my first trimester but that day never came.

My pregnancy ended in miscarriage on Friday night, June 24 at 9wks. Our son/daughter has passed away, but they will always be a treasure in our hearts.

Since I didn’t announce my pregnancy, I didn’t have to share the devastating news. I remained silent and didn’t want to burden anyone with my pain. This was my first miscarriage so it was so hard for me to process what has happened. The experience is traumatic and very painful. Nothing and no one can say to make me feel better. I was physically and mentally hurting. You won’t know this pain unless you’ve gone through it and I’m so sorry if you have.

I didn’t realize how common it was until I joined a MC support group (which has helped me so much with navigating my emotions). As common as it is, it’s not spoken much about.

I didn’t plan to share or tell anyone. When people ask “when are you going to have a 2nd?” or comment “you need to give him a sibling so he’s not alone” brings me pain because they don’t know that I had just lost a baby. I realize I need to stop hiding and masking my pain. I need to be open with what I’m going through so people can be sensitive with the topic. I don’t know if we will have another, I want to focus on getting better first.

I’m very grateful for my Husband and my Son. We are staying Positive, Healing, and Grieving. I’m not asking for you to feel Sorry for me. I want to share my story and I welcome your positive vibes. If you have a story to share, I would love to hear it.

Please Be Kind

It’s a must to continue my birthday photoshoot series with but this time with the addition my son Pierce. It was not easy trying to recreate the poses with a infant but Pierce had so much fun. Had to post all four selects lol.

My goal was to get fit and photoshoot ready by October but that did not happened 😅. Embracing my postpartum body that is filled with snacks, good food and tons of caffeine. (Don’t judge Me)

This year, I want to celebrate for being happy, dedicated entrepreneur, a good wifey to and the best Mama I can be to Pierce.

Cheers to 36!