The Anointed Visionary

MY COMA DAY 2: Sunday, April 2, 2000

So after I sent Jawanza home I just kept taking breathing treatments. They were trying everything to get my breathing up to par. I wasn’t getting any better. In fact, I was getting worse.

The emergency room was overcrowded and there weren’t any rooms left. I was on a bed in the hallway next to the wall just across from the nurses’ station. Because I worked at Penn, my medical records/ chart binder was a different color and I could see the word “FAMILY” in large letters across the spine.

A few times people came over to check on me. Nursing staff, the registrar, residents, etc. My breathing still wasn’t getting any better. In fact, I was really struggling to breathe. My heart was beating fast and I was gasping for even the smallest breath of air.

I remember the admissions coordinator talking to the doctor and then coming over to me and asking if I had a living will. I replied no and she gave me a whole bunch of documents to sign. At the time I was listed as an Organ Donor on my driver’s license and I remember her verifying that information as well.

Once I finished signing the papers, the doctor came over to me to talk to me. He explained that they were trying everything they could to get me better and nothing was working. They said that I was not responding to treatment and it wasn’t looking good. He could tell from the look on my face that I was baffled and not really comprehending anything he was saying.

Then he said, ”do you have anyone you want us to call? Is there anyone we can call for you?” ….
I was finally grasping what he was saying and I remember screaming this bemoaning sound I had never heard from anyone before let alone from myself. I said “call my mom. I want my mom. I don’t want to die.” … As the words came out of my mouth the flood gates opened and I burst into tears and a wave of fear and hysteria met my words with an intense emotion I had never experienced. I gave the doctor the number and that was it.

COMPLETE DARKNESS …. And that was the last thing I remember. …. (to be continued).

Dr. Stefany

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