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Grateful + excited to share a reminder that I’ll be performing at this October 16th!

Honored to share a bill with many musicians I’ve looked up to for years, such as Koan Sound, Zebbler Encanti Experience, Ekorce, Detox Unit (to name a few, tho the list goes on)

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I often think of the set that led me to connect with the Astronox crew.

It was my first post-covid performance + would be my first time to play keys live, as well as to use the full rig I’d assembled during that time.

It would also be my first time sharing what I’d written during covid, which was quite different from what had come before. A crush I’d written one of the pieces for would also be there.

I was terribly anxious about all of this + wasn’t able to sleep for 2 days before the show.

Fighting for sleep on the day, I took some CBD at 2 + 8am. When sleep still didn’t come, I took a sleep aid, which ended up interacting with the CBD, yielding numbness in my fingers + global lag I’d associate with being drunk.

Given I still needed to pack my gear into my car + drive 2 hrs to the venue, I became distressed I wouldn’t be able to make it + went so far as to dial the organizer’s phone to admit as much.

Not sure what stopped me, but I hung the phone up + pushed thru. Packed, drove, played, and afterward, Nick came up to tell me he hadn’t seen a better set in 5 years + that he wanted me to play his fest that October.

Sharing this bc my life would be so different had I turned away + I came very close to doing so. There are so many friends I’d not have made.

Never fear being seen to try and fail. Fear not living.