Adam's Magical World Of Autism

Autism.

I was told Adam has Autism at age 2.
I was told he may never speak but not to give up. But also NOT told what to do.
How to manage expectations.
How to feel and let go of grief.
How to survive countless sleepless nights.
How to stay calm when a meltdown happens in a uncontrolled environment.
How to be so patient that it would be your second name after "Mama."
How to protect your other children.
How to teach them love and acceptance.
How to keep your marriage thriving.
How to breathe.
How to be the mother Adam needed me to be.
It's just the start. I know that.
My mind spins on priceless memories we have yet to make.
Scattered grief we have yet to welcome.
Consistent worry for the unknown and known.
Helplessly existing alongside his struggles.
Fortifying my armor for the next challenge.
We are here. I can't say everything will be okay. Some days are so hard I can only think about where my foot falls next. Some days I think we are made of angelic dust.
I'm here because I can't give up.
Dear Adam I wouldn't change you for the world.
But I would change the world for you.

Adam's Magical World Of Autism
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Autism awareness.
I can honestly say that since having a child of my own with autism my eyes have been opened.

I've gained more patience. Not just with my child but with the world.
I have acknowledged quick judgment on my behalf.
I've learned time and time again. You never know what this person is going through.

Kindness.
Something I thought I had instilled in me. I've always felt like everyone's had their eyes on me.
Judging my child and I from the moment I heard "level 2 non verbal".

From the moment we have been dropped in this autism world.
I've learned now that a majority of looks is human curiosity.

I wish I knew then what I know now.

It's okay momma.
They are happy. They are safe.

It's okay to take a step back from the constant therapy and home services. Endless doctor visits with more questions than answers.
It was too much for him.
But never enough to me.

I wanted to do better for my sweet boy. Go above and beyond. That's all parents really want. To give their children the moon, sky and rainbows.

I couldn't. I was exhausted. I could see my life flash before me. It wasn't what I'd ever thought would be my reality.

Acceptance.
See the thing about acceptance is it doesn't just happen once.
At least not for me.
It happened when I didn't hear the word' "mamma."
It happened when I saw my child self harming.
It happened when I saw my marriage fall apart.

Autism Acceptance.
It happened when I heard his first word.
It gave me hope. Not for the normalicy. But that my child someday could communicate his pain and needs.
It happens when I would proudly say that our 5 year old boy is now somewhat potty trained.
It happens when my husband and I would share an inside joke about Adam's behaviors.
It happens when I see my second child dear Rosie comfort her older brother during a meltdown.

This is my path. God choose us to safeguard this beautiful soul through life. It's hard. Will most likely always be. But God does not give us more than we can handle.

I get asked if I would change him.
The answer is,
No.
But I would change the world for him.




Adam's Magical World Of Autism