Sebastian Lightfoot

April showers.

Chicago always brings back memories. Thankful for good friends, my son, my health, courteous airplane neighbors, empty gyms and my sobriety.

It’s been a time of change, strength, growth, perseverance and adaptation. In a world riddled with judgment, it almost feels impossible to be allowed to be yourself. I’ve never had a problem being myself and it’s something I won’t ever apologize for ever again for the rest of my life. I’ve been reprimanded for being “too open” about my own life or struggles but I’ll tell you right now that the vulnerability from others is exactly what reminded me of the things I recognized in them that needed to be changed in myself - or I would die. Had others not allowed themselves to be seen and had I listened to those who told me to shut my mouth, I wouldn’t have a pulse today. Yeah, I post a lot of gym selfies these days and talk about overcoming addiction, but you probably would too if you were proud that you literally changed every single thing about your life for the better. It’s been hard and it’s been sad, but it’s been way more overwhelmingly positive, encouraging and enlightening. I share these things for myself because I’m proud, but I also share for the countless people who message me in private and are now doing the same exact thing that I did and am doing. Long and short of this, do whatever the f**k you want to do. Don’t listen to anybody else. If you’re doing the right thing and it’s positive and moves you forward, absolutely do it and don’t take no for an answer. Anyone judging you for doing the right thing is probably jealous or a complete and total loser. 8.5 months and I’ve lost 30 pounds of fat, gained 20 pounds of muscle, been sober from any and all substances, started a business, been a present father, #1 in Hanzo, worked my program daily, have a relationship with my God and have been a better friend and support for anyone and everyone in my life - and we’re just getting started.