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hey hey IG friends, it’s been a minute! i wanted to take a moment to keep it real with y’all and give a little life update.
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to get right to it, this year has been really challenging for me mentally and physically. i was diagnosed anemic back in november and have had to have 3 blood transfusions since to keep my hemoglobin up. despite my attempts to keep those levels where they need to be through natural supplements and diet changes.

symptoms i experience with this are constant exhaustion, full body aches and literally feeling like an ice cube majority of the time lol. being someone who is a go-go-go type of person it has been a learning experience to take it down a notch, not look at my to-do list, and give my body the rest it needs without feeling overwhelmed with guilt or a feeling of failure.

which in turn had taken a toll my mental health. which if i’m being honest, has been pretty low since the beginning of this year anyways.
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i often find myself comparing my present self to who i was a year ago. last year i had finally broke the code to happiness & really felt like i had found myself. flash forwards to now when i am struggling like i haven’t in almost 3 years.

i keep up with my physical health, i check off my to do lists, i try to invest a good chunk of time into self development and i even left my job to have time to pursue the things i enjoy doing. so i often find myself wondering WHY is my mental health so low & when the heck did things get so twisted?

i’ll have to update if i ever find an answer to this hah.
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ANYWHO. the point of this post is to just let y’all know that my life behind my IG is kind of a s**t show sometimes & not as happy as my posts (much like these pictures) may lead it on to be. so if you’re going through it or are a little lost right now too, you’re not alone & im always here to listen if you need an open ear 🤍
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id love to know- what is your go to form of self care when your day starts off on the wrong foot? let me know ⬇️
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