heal your self

Feelin myself♥️

And another one...I know their long but maybe someone will read and not feel so alone..

Not sure exactly the moment it all went wrong.. Perhaps it was the moment I started allowing you to feed me your bread crumbs of your love... I was so sure this time I had my head screwed on just right..I had all my boundaries hung up in plain sight..I stayed aware of all my hard lessons I'd learned from before..I kept both eyes open on high alert for any of our past red flags..I walked in this time knowing full well my worth and my love for myself.. What I would and would not put up with... But some where along the way I once again lost myself and allowed my self to be played..I would close my eyes as you served me the scraps of your love..I knew something wasn't right when your crumbs started to fade.. At first I tried to speak up.. But you were always to eager to shut me up with another stale crumb...I even started to think it was me..maybe I was the problem because I just couldn't get full anymore off the crumbs you were serving me... But then I started to see all the red flags that I had let Keep slipping by me... So many moments I was ready to walk away.. But for some reason you would never let me and we'd end up talking things out and you'd throw me a bigger crumb and I'd eat it up.. Convincing my self that.. That time I was actually full... Until I just started expecting your love no matter how you disguised it.. Convincing my self we were actually getting some where.. And we were gonna make it this time... But no we didn't you chose when we were done and how we were done... You waited till you were done to walk away from me... So here I am again picking my self back up off the ground.. But that's my fault for once again letting my guard down... You know Everytime you walked away I was always left with so many unanswered questions..I just had to learn to move on without the answers... But this one thing drives me crazy constantly.... How you would get mad because I wasn't satisfied with your damn bread crumbs of your fake love... But the reason I wasn't satisfied was because you taught me what love looked like and felt like in the beginning of our relationship.. Something I'd never had before.. And at the end of our relationship you taught me love didn't look like no stale bread crumbs anymore... So thank you for both of those lessons... Because when it comes to love I refuse to settle especially for some stale bread .. My hope for you is that the female you left me for makes you incredibly happy for the long haul.... Because if she doesn't..I won't be there to catch your fall..I can't eat your stale bread anymore... Vee2021

Jasmine passed away to soon please help give her a proper burial.. thank you