August Mamas

last night i shut down my business, august mamas. it was a decision i had made several months ago + i finally did what i needed to close this chapter in my life. it’s tough knowing i worked so hard on building my website, designing shirt prints, + figuring out how to draw traffic, only for my business to not be thriving. but at the end of the day, it just wasn’t paying me enough to make it worth it + after having indie i just didn’t have the same drive to continue running my e-commerce shop.
but just because it’s over doesn’t mean I don’t appreciate what came from it. i learned a little about coding, i designed a website from the ground up, + i connected with my customers on social media. august mamas helped me heal after my miscarriage. i poured my grief + sorrow into creating something to honor the babies who don’t make it + the mamas who are left behind. i named that rainbow collection after my baby who didn’t make it, skylar dillon.
literal sweat + too many tears i wanna admit went into this little business venture of mine. but i am ok with it ending. i am loving just being mama right now 💛

9 months out vs. 👉 9 months in
a little late in posting this but that’s amiright? how how howwww is it possible that indie has been with us out here for longer than she was growing in my belly? time is a thief, but each month just seems to get better + better as we watch her little personality develop.
9 months of loving this sweet girl on the outside. motherhood has been hard, humbling, painful + messy. p**p in the face (twice). too many blowouts to count 💩 (in the car, in her snoo, in her halloween costume, on an airplane...). spit splattering the floor, my pants, the couch. bleeding, blistered ni***es. weight gain problems. the struggle to lay her down for naps or put her in the stroller, car seat, or carrier without screams ensuing.
BUT ALSO, motherhood has been the most rewarding experience. the ability to make her smile + giggle, her little hand wrapped around my finger, her arms reaching for me, squeezing around my neck. it has helped me understand just how much my heavenly Father loves me, because as much as i love my daughter, He loves her + all His children so much more.
indie girl, it has already been a wild ride. the best is yet to come, but the best is also NOW. i promise to make the most of every day because there was a time i didn’t think you would ever be in it. 💛