Chubby Struggles

I’ve been diving deep into the hard stuff with therapy lately. The parts I’ve long kept hidden- specifically eating disorder trauma and the depths of it now- are actually being spoken out loud.

It’s absolutely terrifying and simultaneously freeing. But I don’t think people talk much about the after effects of facing trauma.

My therapist focuses a lot on the mind-body connection, and mine is STRONG. When I’m depressed, my lower back completely freezes up. Anxiety builds in my shoulders and neck so bad, it’s causing nerve issues my chiropractor can’t understand.

When trauma is released mentally, it usually needs a physical outlet too. It explains why tough therapy sessions can leave you exhausted.

So right now, I’m exhausted. I’m working slow, stuck in brain fog, and binge watching Love Island.

And that’s okay. It’s okay to take the time you need to recover, to rest, to recover. Don’t be afraid to listen to your body; I’m learning to listen to mine too.