Nature's Intuition

CLOSE OUT SALE!

Stop by Nature's Intuition one last time!

January 30th anytime between 2pm-8pm.

Come and say hi to me (or goodbye to the space) and buy any of the remaining products/ furniture I'll be selling off. I'll post pictures of some stuff I'm selling off!

Everything will be cash, venmo, paypal, or cashapp.

I'm kinda out of words at the moment. I just finished with the last of my scheduled clients in this space. So I'm feeling a lot of things. But I'm soooo grateful for my client today (thanks for the lunch 😜) but the session went so well without the pressure of maintaining a business. Everything is going to be OK with however things go in the future.
It will just be diffrent and that's ok.

The closing sale is going to be a weird day. So I may be drinking wine lol feel free to bring wine if you wana have a glass with me.

Thank you all for your support!

LOGISTICS AND HOW TO SUPPORT ME.

Business wise-

• I'll be taking some clients until the end of January. I don't have too many openings but if you want one last session in my space book online or message me and ill get you scheduled!

• I'll be having a CLOSE OUT sale on Monday January 30th from 2pm- 8pm where ill be selling all of my inventory at a deep discount. I'll also be selling some of the stuff/ furniture. More details to come.

• I have a few pretty big expenses for ending my lease early. So if you can't come to the close out sale but still want to send a couple dollars my way… I'll have my venmo/paypal at the bottom of this post. It feels weird to ask for help but this is where I'm at.

• I'll be taking some clients at home once i close the shop but it may take me a bit of time to get situated. Please still reach out if you're looking for an appointment after February 1st and I'll keep you posted on where I'm at or refer you out!

Personal wise

• This is going to be a hard time for me. Emotionally and physically. All the things I've avoided by diving into work are going to come up and out. If you feel called… reach out, send me a note, let's grab coffee or a drink, bring me a bottle of wine, or let's sit down and chat. Not in a professional way but in a friend way because there are times when I need someone to hold space for me to be heard. Send me a few dates and times that you're free and I'm sure I'll be available to hang.

• Please stop by my close out sale. Even if you can't buy anything, just to show me support and that the work I did (am doing in my own time) matters. Or let's grab a coffee if that day doesn't work for you! Hugs are appreciated ❤️

Again thank you all for supporting me and loving me. I couldn't have made it this far without you!

**I'll still be using these social media's in the future to post about any retreats or workshops I'll be doing in the future! (Once I'm ready)**

Venmo- -Smoker
Pay pal- Ashley Ondra
Cashapp- $naturesintuition

SECOND TO LAST POST IN THIS STORY THREAD!

I don’t like working alone. I love being a part of a team.
I generally like having coworkers or other staff.
I have found opening a business to be very lonely.
Not to say there isn't an amazing group of people I have come to know and love and respect and look up to as business owners. Because the people I have met because of the work I do have been incredible.
F**k, seeing these womens step into their power as business owners has left me speechless.
But in regards to running this business, it has been very hard trying to do it alone.
I am learning how much I thrive helping other people within their own businesses.
I feel like a supporter. A manager. An idea haver. A doer. A spaceholder.
Not so much an owner. At least not now. Not alone. Not in this way.
Even though my job is working directly with people, there is still a loneliness about it.
I am missing having someone to bounce ideas off of or someone to help keep the energy alive.
As someone who struggles with depression it can be hard to do that without a sounding board.
And when I started this business I was living with my husband and had more financial support.
And now my body is failing me.
My wrists are giving out.
Doing my job has become very painful.
And this is holding a s**t ton of emotional weight.

So now putting my ego aside.
I’m releasing what doesn’t serve me and asking the universe to provide what is needed to fill its space. Whatever that may be and whatever that may look like.

*check out the song At Least We Found The Floor by Foxing. This is the song that I've been relating too the past 2 years*

**picture is a random one from recently**

CW- S*xual Assult and consent violation

I'm the kind of person that you can just feel when their in their element. I genuinely feel like when I'm feeling myself it's like a ray of light is shining off of me and it's captivating.
I know that may make me sound a bit full of myself but I don't care. It's true. And if you've been close enough to me to see that shine through... You're welcome :p

September 2020
After I signed the lease to my first space I was glowing. I don't think I have ever felt that confident in myself and my body and my life and direction. It was pure magic.

But as I've come to discover (yes this is probably a traumatic limiting belief) that men like to take that magic for themselves. Even if it isn't theirs to have.
Ooo something shiny, I must own it.
So that's what happened.
2 weeks after I signed the lease for the first space.
2 weeks before I got the keys.
I was r***d by a close friend.
Seeing my bright shining self, wanting it for his own, not taking no for an answer.
And in a couple of minutes that light was gone.

It was hard for many reasons. Something like this always has a lot of layers. But of course (being who I am) I just didn't want to make it a thing. I wanted to pretend like nothing happened and keep moving forward.
Especially with all the business stuff that was now at the front of my mind.

Only a few people knew about what happened and I told all those people that I was fine and dealing with it.

I was not... and they probably knew that.

It changed me.
It tainted the start of my business.
It was the beginning of the end of many relationships in my life.
It is still affecting the way that I interact with the people around me.

And in a f**ked up way, it made me better at my job.

This is why consent is so important to me.
And I will say this many times over...

Pulling away... meant no.
I don't want to be intimate with you in that way... meant no.
No response... meant no.
Maybe, I don't know, I just don't want this to be a thing... meant no.
Sobbing... meant no.

*this picture was the first selfie I took after that incident, about a week after*

Story to continue this week...