Model Laura M Corbin

I usually keep pretty quiet about the horrible things people have done to me; I think that’s why they keep happening. No accountability; because I walk away. I’m done with that fckery.

I’m about to enter my “calling everyone out on their horrific s*t” phase. Stay tuned.

If you’re can see this (meaning: I haven’t blocked you) & you’re scared; make it right, NOW.

I’m tired of suffering in silence and always footing the bill for your horrendous behavior.

Don’t want to be publicly outed for the awful human being you are?? Make it right. NOW… because I am SO FCKN DONE protecting your choices and waiting for you to be better because you’ve all just gotten A LOT worse.

You blame me because you think I’ll stay quiet; because you don’t know my strength.

If you know me and you are scared then you know you’ve done me wrong and thought my kindness was weakness.

It wasn’t. It never was.

I am about to expose so many of you because you have decided to bury me but forget than I can dig; that I’m stronger than you.

Enjoy your rest tonight.

I’ll have no more of this, thanks.

I was always stronger than you and I have always been kinder but I’m done giving you the benefit of the doubt now. You lose. Even if I dıe, you still lose.

I’m not the victim, I’m fighting back.

And I will win. By a landslide.

You know who you are.

-L

Please don’t take it personally if I haven’t responded to you (or read anything you’ve sent me or even so much as checked my notifications, comments, messages, tags, etc.). I’ve been in a HUGE life shift for the better BUT it requires 99.99% of my attention for it to work so I’m hanging on for dear life and cannot let go as this shift is a MAJOR one so if I lose my focus, I’m not sure that I’ll have this opportunity again, EVER.

I absolutely must embrace it NOW.

It’s REALLY not you; ANY of you. It is literally ME. I’m working on something BIG—the greatest challenge of my life—that will, if done correctly, change everything for the better, FOREVER.

So yeah, I’m in the zone lately… because this really feels like my last shot and I can’t ignore it. It is GRUELING but I am completely sure that it is worth it… and you all have been like my lane bumpers or life vests; keeping me afloat and alive just enough so that I can grab this opportunity and actually act on it. Nothing about it is easy and everything about it is extremely complicated but I KNOW that I have it in me; I just need your continuous help to stay afloat until mid June when this opportunity comes to fruition and if I plan properly, it will change the trajectory of my life so much that I will finally be able to jumpstart my life, get back to being the independent whimsical baddie that I am.

Yes, I’m chronically ill and that’s forever BUT this opportunity will afford me an actual LIFE on my own terms again; stability and peace, even while still sick. This is a breakthrough; GIVE ME STRENGTH.

Without your help, this would be impossible; I have a great chance right now though because of all of you. Please don’t walk away yet. I am really going for it; it’ll pay off!

Things have been so hectic, SO tooth and nail, just fighting so hard to survive each day; it’s all my brain and body can handle… but something BIG will happen if this support continues/grows and I keep going; FOCUSED.

I haven’t gotten back to ANYONE lately because the energy it’d take to do so is more than I need to survive. I really just don’t have more in me and my situation right now needs to change so I must put everything I’ve got into saving MYSELF. I’ve been working on this quietly for a long time now and it’s gained a LOT of traction and I have to stay vigilant about my momentum. This feels like my last shot. I have to take it. It’s VERY hard but I’ll take that over some kind of nothing existence ANY day.

So please, remember, no matter WHAT:

I love you all!

Please remember that when I seem distant or unavailable; your kindness and support is what is making this opportunity even possible for me; you’re holding me up so I don’t drown while I work on achieving this goal. Don’t let go!!! I am SO CLOSE!

Also, please remember that if I disappear for a while it’s not because I want to but because if I don’t disappear for focus, I won’t make it through.

I am REAALLLLLLY pushing myself HARD lately and I don’t know how I’m going to make this very big opportunity that’s been handed to me a success but I’m working my asssssss off daily to prepare because it could very well be my ticket to freedom.

Long story. I don’t want to jinx it. Also, I can’t say what it is yet because the job is mine already BUT it isn’t public yet so I have to be vague. It’s big. I can’t let it pass me by. I won’t.

My point is: I’m putting all of my energy, both physical and mental, into this goal come June; I have to focus on it completely in order for it to work. The payoff will be incredibly worth it and will allow me to save myself.

I have to do it and I want to do it. I am aware that I’m being very vague but that’s because I have to be right now. Can’t say anything about it until it’s actually happening.

All of these plans I had fell apart, all of them, and I believe that this is why; so I’d be able to seize this HUGE opportunity. On my own.

I’m not ignoring you; any of you.

Your support means EVERYTHING to me.

The goal is to get myself out of this mess, so if I seem distant it’s because I’ve found a way out and I REALLY need to concentrate in order to execute the plan perfectly.

It’s BIG.

As of now, I’m just barely hanging on but you all know me, I’m beyond resilient and resourceful so when I say, “I need to focus because I’ve got a plan and it’s all me; it will work IF I’m left with silence. Not abandoned; please stay… just hold your breath for a little while longer and don’t interfere because the path is soooo clear now BUT, yes, I do still need you”, that means that with concentration and support, I WILL achieve my goal and EVERYONE will be better off.

Anyway, my sleep schedule is bonkers but I’m gonna get some shut eye.

Don’t give up on me. Please.

I haven’t given up yet; this big push—if executed as planned—will change EVERYTHING. I know this to be true because this has happened in extremely similar ways before & my gut instinct is telling me that it is the BEST choice I can make right now.

I just have to let go of FEAR.

I am definitely getting there.

So, if I haven’t gotten back to you in a while it’s because I am frantically yet carefully building a new life for myself and even one misstep could cost me everything. Again.

I must prioritize this opportunity and myself right now; survival comes first.

I’m struggling every day to pay for my healthcare, food, water, RXs and SO much more still; those things and this opportunity demand my full attention.

I may very well have a way out. I can’t elaborate but if I can keep my focus strictly on my goals and achieve said goaModel Laura M Corbinr the cycle and I HAVE TO shatter the cycle.

I need your support, yes, still. I love you all for the support you have provided; it is stunning to see that people really do care. Thank you!!!

With my drive/talent/knowledge of the craft and your support; I may very, VERY likely turn this ship around.

I have until June.

Please stay with me through this process!

So if I don’t respond much or at all; just know that it’s because all of you have lifted me up to the point that I have hope again and that small spark of hope has created a fire so now I’m tending to my fire; making it into something that lasts. I couldn’t have done it without you all, so please don’t give up on me now.

Please stick around.

This opportunity is an enormous one and I have the skill, the ambition, the passion and, not to mention, the quick yet very fruitful job is already mine; all I have to do is find a way to simply SHOW UP.

I can do this. Please just continue to help in any way you can so I don’t fall through the cracks.

I have a very real chance of getting my LIFE back.

Now or never!

I
LOVE
YOU
ALL
!!!

❤️
~ L

Men: if any of you choose to be angry at me for saying this (it’s well overdue), then you are 100% missing the point. It needed to be said & if you hate me for it, okay. Bye.

I’ve never felt so alone & misguided before. I keep pushing my consciousness beyond whatever step this is in my life & I keep coming up with nothing; complete darkness.

This is incredibly unusual for me; I always find hope in the DARKEST places but now? None.

The only logical next step feels like just letting myself go; be taken. I have no one. I have no alternate paths. I’ve been racking my brain for years now & I think it’s time to accept that maybe deąth just means that I’ve run out of options.

That’s it.

It’s the next logical step. There’s nothing else.

I truly hate this timeline.

Hope feels like an infection.

I only hope to end the pain. That I can hope for.

Everything else just seems so far out of reach that there’s absolutely no way in hell it’ll get better.

Checkmate.

I am out of moves.

Like I said, this is VERY unusual for me, to feel this way; which is why it feels like the end.

I wasn’t expected to survive the horrors of my year in the hospital in all of 2022 and honestly, I don’t think I was supposed to survive beyond the beginning of 2022.

None of this is me anymore.

None of this is my life anymore.

Everything since then has felt like a nightmare that keeps getting worse.

I’m done.

There is nothing left for me.