More Than One Victim

MY TESTIMONY

A few weeks ago I posted a blog of one’s testimony as to how More Than One Victim’s presence has helped them, because of this I have decided to open my heart and explain how creating More Than One Victim and speaking to many of you has helped me.

Before I decided to create MTOV I was completely lost. I was trying so hard to get past all of the events that had occurred previously in my life that I had not even considered understanding those events rather than dwelling on them like I was. I had knew I was an indirect victim, but I hadn’t yet understood the meaning behind it, or I wasn’t applying the understanding to my thoughts quite yet.

One day it all clicked. A few days later I began forming MTOV. What had clicked was the fact that I couldn’t wake up every single day angry and upset with myself for feeling not just that the day he killed her, he killed a part of me too because of her death, but the feeling that his actions and capability to do them had killed part of me. I was so conflicted with my feelings that they didn’t even make sense in my own mind. I didn’t want to wake up every single day with that conflict, I needed to understand the conflict for myself. I needed to understand my thoughts. I needed to understand that it was okay that I felt the way that I did about his actions, not just my loss. I was an indirect victim of his actions, I couldn’t be mad at myself for feeling the way I did.

Once I had formed MTOV and put it out there for all to see I began to understand more and more every single day about indirect victims, not just through my own thoughts but through each and every single person that had contacted me about their stories, their experiences and their thoughts.

Testimony Blog:

When I was ten years old, I was diagnosed with a terminal illness. I was told that I wouldn’t make it past twenty years old. The illness wasn’t something that could be spread to others around me, but the pain from the diagnoses is what was able to spread. I was terrified of leaving those around me, even the people I had never spoken to. I never understood the guilt behind that. Then one day I was scrolling on Instagram and saw Emily’s post about something she built, More Than One Victim. I read through her posts and her website and began to understand the guilt within myself that I’ve had all these years. I wasn’t feeling guilty for my future ending in people that wouldn’t care, I was feeling guilty about my loss because they are indirect victims of my illness. I would have never understood this without MTOV. The guilt within has been extremely present all these years without an explanation. It had been weighing on me for so long because it made me feel like a “pick me girl” or someone that is more important than I am for feeling this way. Now I understand that within every situation there are so so many more people that are affected by everything that aren’t even understood. Now I don’t feel guilty for feeling the guilt I have already gained from having this illness and the guilt I do have, doesn’t weigh on me as much as it had in the past, because now I understand. – Anonymous

“No it’s stupid, I’m fine.” ON SITE NOW. Check it out at morethanonevictim.com

“No It’s Stupid, I’m Fine.” In three days. Why this statement is more mentally deteriorating than saying the truth no matter is one is an indirect victim, direct victim, or anything.

Indirect victims are everywhere. Sometimes we forget how people in the present can be effected by history. Check out today’s blog on our site under the blog tab!