Infinite Readings

I've been meaning to sit and write a spell for a while. Much has been aswirl. For any who know my spiritual awakening and the path that followed where angels, feathers and hawks were virtual forces of magic on the daily, you will understand me when I say I believe I have entered Feathers 2.0.

This time, however, the feathers are Dragons. There is SO much to say about this and how it has all unfolded and yet I try to capture it on paper and the words just will not come. I am trusting there is a reason and will continue to work on my patience until it is the time.

For now, suffice it to say, the mystery of why I was called to Glastonbury Tor (Avalon) in 2016 has (finally) partially been revealed and I have been called back again. The last time I went I wound up very ill for 2/3 of the trip, including the time scheduled for my visit to Glastonbury specifically. I believe I was not spiritually ready for the energies there. Much growth needed to occur. I also believe I'm finally exiting an extensive dark night of the soul and crossing the threshold into the next level; a new beginning/period. I am excited to see what Avalon holds for me this time. If the magic and synchronicities of the last 2 months are a preview it is sure to WOW *smiles*

I am currently working with a good friend of mine as she practices a new healing modality. I help her with her practice and receive all of the healing benefits in exchange for Readings and Reiki Healings. For as long as I've been practicing Reiki, I have never felt as though I was actually 'succeeding' or actually 'doing anything'. Essentially, I've been experiencing Imposter Syndrome. Some of that is true and some of that is because I can be VERY literal.

Stepping into a session I feel the intense need to do everything 'by the book' and 'right' and if I don't, then I'm not providing a genuine or REAL session and therefore, nothing is happening for my client. Over the last year or so my intuition has been whispering something different. For even longer, my collective lifetimes of wisdom have been nudging me closer and closer to some other truth. Fun fact...remembering our gifts from prior lifetimes is not simple or easy *soft laugh* or, maybe it is and I just make it harder than it needs to be (knowing me, much more likely the latter!)

Today, I decided to throw my rigidity out the window and asked my friend if she was open to allowing me to experiment a bit and to afford me real time feedback to help me learn and understand what I'm experiencing during a session and to help guide me. Thankfully, she was VERY open to this.

I opened sacred space, and the session began. I had NO plan, whatsoever. We discussed her desired intention for the session, and I let my intuition guide me. Nothing went according to the Reiki steps I was taught. Instead, I felt where to go and what to do. Her sharing showed we were definitely in sync and she was feeling the energy in the places I was projecting it and could even sense the varying degrees being applied. This was SO beneficial and helpful. I allowed me to feel like the energy was indeed flowing through me and making its way where it needed to go.

About halfway through the session as I worked on her heart center and solar plexus her chest began to sob and the tears began to flow. She's an energy worker in her own right so she understands what is occurring during a healing session and thus knew what she needed to do to help assist her body in releasing the mass amounts of trauma, pain and toxic build up we both knew were in need of release. Together, we worked for almost an hour to move the energies through and out.

95% of what I did was intuitive, 5% was what I was taught. This was BY FAR the single most profound and productive healing session I have ever taken part in in the role of 'healer'. I have had the tremendous blessing of receiving that kind of healing amidst one of the hardest periods of my life so I understand what it is to feel that release and that healing.

Based on her feedback, it appears the session was powerful and healing for her. I so look forward to debriefing and hearing more of her experience so that I can integrate the information and better understand what I experienced. The confirmation will help so much with my self trust and self-confidence which will allow me to have the courage to explore further, the intuitive guidance from Spirit that flows so unabated if I would just allow it instead of second guessing my abilities.

For now, I am bolstered and encouraged and excited if not a bit afraid *soft smile* but I trust this bravery will be rewarded with more and more 'remembrance' and I can't wait to connect all the dots of wisdom collected over lifetimes and then put them all together and heal 'my way'. I believe we all have our own way. There is no right or wrong. I believe each person traverses their modalities in their own unique way, infusing their healing(s) with their own unique energies and gifts. I am excited to rediscover my own and sense the Dragons will have much to do with that excavation.

I can't wait to see what comes. Thank you, so much Chelsea for sharing your gifts and encouraging the blossoming of my own.