Sandra Hedenberg

I’ve been missing my Dad so much lately. I’ve been thinking about so many of our conversations that we’ve had over the years, as well as so many conversations that we’ll never actually have the opportunity to actually have.💔

My Dad and I used to talk pretty much every day. When I worked with him at Parke Place Realty, us talking was just a “part of the job”. When I went out on my own in real estate (and left his company), us talking on the daily became a matter of choice. I truly enjoyed those conversations and it was during that time that we became “friends” as adults. ❤️

We would talk about real estate sometimes, but we also talked a lot about my dreams of becoming a motivational speaker and coach, as well as me finally finding the “perfect” life partner for me. 😂 He would often tell me at times when I most needed it, “Sandy, if someone else can do it, so can you. It’s just that simple. You just have to follow your heart and do what makes you most happy. ❤️

Once my Dad received his diagnosis of stage 4 pancreatic cancer his health declined very quickly. His treatment plan of chemotherapy and radiation made it increasingly difficult for him to be available for our daily chats. 💔

I remember at one point in time, I knew that my Dad wasn’t going to beat this horrible disease and that he wasn’t going to be with us much longer. In an attempt to mentally prepare myself for the fact that I wouldn’t always be able to speak with him; I made the decision to not call him so much, to try and prepare myself for the time that I couldn’t call him anymore. 💔

Over the last 7 years, there have been countless moments that I’ve wanted (and needed) to be able to call and share some good news with him or talk through a problem that I was trying to work through. And it is at those moments that my heart literally hurts. 💔😢🙏

This morning, I realized why I’ve been missing my Dad and our conversations so much more than usual. I really want to be able to tell him that I’m finally going after my dreams of becoming a motivational speaker and coach (as well as working diligently on my end at finding the “perfect” life partner for me😂🙏💕.)

This Tuesday, I’m going to speak to a large group of people about the power of believing in their dreams and themselves. I know in my heart that my Dad will be there with me in spirit, cheering me on from Heaven in a way that only he could, fiercely (and diligently) helping me to believe in me too. ❤️

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How does it feel? I spend most of my early mornings in this very place in my apartment writing and contemplating my thoughts and feelings. I recognize that it’s not a luxury that most people have, and I’m very grateful that I do.