Crowned Queens

Crowned Queens!
I have a word for you from my heart and recent revelation.

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I want to add the background revelation/experience I had with Jesus during worship two or three weeks ago that birthed this devotional entry.

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I was worshipping and saw myself carrying heavy water baskets. He smiled and took them off my shoulders and put them on His. I felt like, "Well, what am I supposed to do now?" I had made that weight apart of my identity because I carried the weight all my life. I was used to it. However, the weight had shown up in my body. I was not standing as tall. I had aches and pains and calloused feet. I began to resent the weight I had to carry all my life. I owned that weight, I put it on like it was a jacket covering me. I would wear it like, "Look at my coat. You have no idea the kind of weight I have been carrying, just look!" When Jesus picked it up like it was nothing, it was not like anything I had experienced before. My first response was that I lost all of that weight, and I didn't know how I felt about that. It felt like a loss. I felt a little naked without my coat. I quickly wanted to pick it up and put it back on. Jesus was not having it. So, there I was looking helpless and exposed. Who am I without that? What do I do now? Jesus simply motioned me to be by His side and follow Him. Now, I am trying to adjust to this freedom. I couldn't wrestle it out of His hands if I wanted to. I essentially lost control. I thought I lost my purpose, but it was control. How do YOU feel when you are not in control? Yes, that. I felt fear about what would happen if "I" didn't carry that thing. After all, I was doing a pretty good job by myself navigating this load. See, we can not see what Jesus sees. We can not know what He knows until we surrendar. I realized I was still mentally carrying that weight and how free I would be was all I could control. It was a choice. Weight is not there. My mind still heald the weight. It's was not Jesus's fault if I was still in that stronghold. It was mine.

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I saw a Tiktok where a woman was putting herself in time out because she tried to control circumstances again. Jesus loves when we put ourselves in time out because just like the littles we don't like it but it's where we listen the best. Duane, my husband, used to sit with our girls in time out and help them see why they are there. They had to explain to us what they did and what they can do better next time before being released to play. I wonder if we put ourselves in time out more often if we would have more understanding and knowledge to catch ourselves from repeating the behavior. I wanted to share a devotional I just wrote as I have been practicing release and surrender lately in a very practical way by paying attention to how my body responds to information I am receiving and what I do with that response. Hope it speaks to you as well. We could all enjoy less stress and anxiety in our lives, I am sure.

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Casting It Out

His Word, My Anchor
"Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you."
—1 Peter 5:6–7 NIV

What My Heart Sees
The Lord has been teaching me how much I tend to take in and take on burdens that were never mine to carry. The weight shows up in my body—tight shoulders, shallow breaths, weary muscles. But when I pause, acknowledge what I’ve been holding, and say aloud, “Jesus, I release this to You,” I feel an immediate lifting. My body relaxes. My soul breathes again.

Peter’s words about casting bring a vivid picture: fishermen in Jesus’ day hurling heavy nets into the sea. That was no light toss—it took full strength, a thrusting outward. In the same way, releasing anxiety isn’t passive; it’s an intentional, active surrender.

Where This Meets My Life
When I try to manage the weight on my own, I’m not humbling myself—I’m controlling. And control is really fear dressed up as pride. Many of us learned to carry burdens because we thought no one else would. But Scripture calls us to humility—trusting God’s mighty hand to handle what we cannot.

Pause + Ponder
What heavy nets have I been clutching instead of casting?

Whispers to God
Lord, forgive me for holding what was never mine to carry. Teach me the strength of humility—to cast, not clutch. I release these weights into Your mighty hand. Lift me up as You promised, in Your perfect time. Amen.