Living Word Ministries

Lord, I Need Your Help

In my distress I called to the LORD; I cried to my God for help. (Psalm 18:6)

One evening after an intense “discussion,” my husband told me that no matter what he did or how hard he tried, it was never enough for me. He was right. I constantly found fault with him as a husband and as a dad.

But when he implied that I was impossible to please … well, that sent my already-out-of-control emotions reeling. I grabbed my coat and stormed out the front door. Hot tears streamed down my cheeks as I replayed our conversation in my head.

I was determined to figure out what his problem was and get Jesus to fix him. So I started filing complaints against my husband in what you might call a prayer. About half way through, I finally heard myself—all the ugliness, all the anger, frustration and resentment. That’s when I realized, I NEED HELP.

I needed God to help me figure out how—after so many years of a happy marriage—we had gotten to this ugly place.
Instead of just crying, I found myself crying out to God for help.

King David was much better at this than I was that day. He had a habit of crying out to God for help when he was in distress. One Bible scholar notes that the phrase, “‘In my distress’ refers, most probably, not to any particular case, but rather indicates [David’s] general habit of mind, that when he was in deep distress and danger he had uniformly called upon the Lord, and had found him ready to help.”

That night, when I stopped talking and started listening, I sensed God showing me what I wanted; which was for my husband to make up for all the ways my dad had fallen short as a father to me and as a husband to my mom.

Years as a child in a broken home with a broken heart had led to a significant sense of loss and deep disappointment. Yet, up to that point, I had never grieved the happily-ever-after that I longed for but didn’t have.

My unfulfilled hopes had become bitter expectations. I became controlling and critical, thinking that if I could get my partner to be the husband and dad I wanted him to be, maybe my broken dreams could be put back together. But I was wrong. Instead of expecting my husband to make up for my losses, I needed to cry out to God with my hurts and call on Him for help.

Now think and internalize:
Are there hurts that hold you hostage? Expectations no one could really ever meet? What I do know is we all need help at some point in our marriage and I know God is there, waiting for each of us to cry out to Him.

As I continued to process what had happened in my childhood and how it affected my marriage, I learned to ask God for help through each step of my healing journey. It took time, prayer, and courage, but God was my very present help.

By the way, I’m crazy about my husband. And so very thankful for that day several years ago when I finally asked the Lord for help.

PRAYER:
Dear Lord, I need Your help, especially with ______. Please show me where to start and be my help each step of the way. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

REMEMBER
Hurts from your past can hold you hostage. God is there, waiting to heal you.
REFLECT
In what ways do you file complaints against your husband (or other loved one) in what you might call a prayer?
RESPOND
Determine if your hurts are too deep to heal without outside help. If they are, consider seeing a pastor or counselor.
POWER VERSES
Psalm 46:1; Deuteronomy 4:7

The acts of a person can tell you a lot about the content of that persons heart. It can show you their brokenness, it can put into perspective how that person sees him or herself and it can also teach us how that persons views God.
When love looks like a spouse degrading their spouse with words or even a heavy hand to s***k and discipline a child through the idea of “fear me”… it is not love. That instead shows a persons fear. Fear of not being seen, not being heard as well as fear of the future.

I remember when I thought “s***king or hitting” was an act of love. Yes, I know the verse spare the rod spoil the child - but I believe God was trying to show us that there is discipline in disciplining. Just as there is a way that we can use our words to either cut down those around us or build them up.

Love is not hurting another to gain control. It is trusting in God that when we pray, we are seeking His Will and Kingdom before our own agenda.

It took an act of God to show and teach me that love doesn’t equal pain in any sense. On the contrary, it is truth coming to every surface wrapped in grace.

Berating a spouse means you need to connect with God and allow him to regain your heart so that whatever spills from your lips is like honey instead. Hitting children to get them to “behave or to teach them a lesson” only teaches them fear and retaliation. It says to them: I can hit others when I am feeling angry, overwhelmed or scared of an unknown future.

Using our words and connecting to God is more than just obedience. It is Love and Love conquers all.

Today, let’s reflect on Gods love. His dying on the cross for each of us so that we may be made whole again upon departing this world.

Remember Love does not boast. It does not hurt others. It is an act of Jesus Christ. It is being His hands and feet around the world, but most importantly within our own homes. It is showing patience when all th me patients goes out the window. It is not writi g down faults of another and keeping them in the back of our minds. It is letting go of the pain that someone caused us so we can be light and salt. It is hope.

If you struggle with love.. loving yourself, loving others.. or even someone else showing you love, pray. Ask God to come into your heart and build in you - his kingdom.

Let us pray:
“Heavenly Father… I often struggle with both giving and receiving love. As of this moment; I surrender myself to you. I ask for your forgiveness for all the wrongs I have both acted upon and spoken. I ask you to come deep into my heart and renew my heart for you. Lord, rebuild your kingdom within my heart - help me to see myself and others the way you do. Teach me how to truly love and give me a renewal within my mind. Soften my heart to love as you love and transform my life by giving me a greater understanding. I surrender to your Will and ask you to guide my every step, to soften my every word and to make me more like you as each day passes. Teach me to have AGAPE LOVE for all.

By the power and authority of Jesus Christ in me, I rebuke and cancel every fiery dart from the enemy that is aimed at me and my families life. I break every generational curse off of me and my family and ask that you send every angel to guard me, my spouse and our children both inside and outside of our home in Jesus Mighty Name, I thank you Father that it is finished and your love renews and starts in me, Amen.”

Hear God Speak
As I was in prayer, I began to ask God to give me visions and dreams of what is to come considering all that has been happening around the nation.

l asked Him what His Will is for me, my household, my children and His Church (Christians all across the globe.)
As I begin entering the spirit realm, I saw a darkness around the heads of many... as in: a dark cloud hovering over the people of the earth in various nations including the USA.
I was prompted to begin praying in the spirit for leaders in all areas, then shifted to my children, my household and the Church for that darkness to be uplifted, cancelled and removed and as I began to see activity shifting and gotten fiercer within my prayer stance; The Holy Spirit prompted me to speak The BLOOD • OF JESUS over the darkness.

In obedience, I began to command the darkness to dismantle.. as I saw this, l noticed a few demons flying around me.. one that was black, but had sharp looking shoulders. His eyes were beady but had the deepest black tones with a pinpoint of the reddest red one could describe. I saw a dark grey spirit also.. using the authority of Jesus Christ and His blood, I saw them become extremely irritated as they began flying around like crazy fast... they were angry and continued to try to return, but also looked like they were being burned by The Blood (as if the quick reaction to when a person accidentally touches a hot stove/oven) that jerk like movement - but 100 times faster)... I then begin loudly and boldly speaking and sanctifying the spirit space with The Blood Of Jesus and the darkness zipped away within a millisecond. As the demons shifted out, I could feel their anguish, but also their anger and hate for me as they knew they could not defeat the Blood of the Lamb.

The moment they redacted, I saw a bright light hovering over me... In the Spirit I saw the Blood of Jesus on the cross and all what it means. God then began speaking and prompted me to share with those who have ears to hear. (See image).