I Am Ayana

Reflection fountain

The healing garden. Hearing is the first stage in the acute loss period. This is the bell lyre. It reminds me of when I used binaural sounds to calm my nervous system while pregnant with Maliq.

Planning your death is an interesting experience. Thinking about how you want to be remembered…how you will support your children when you’re gone. 👩🏾‍🦳

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Anyone else take the strength finders test? As a high school senior restorative was at the top of my list.

Restorative defines individuals who are naturally adept at problem-solving and finding solutions to restore things to their best state. They excel at diagnosing problems, identifying root causes, and finding effective solutions, often enjoying the challenge of fixing what’s broken.

While I appreciate it for being apart of who I am. I no longer over identify with this as a strength. Restoring what is broken is not my job, neither is it my strength.

Surrendering what we’re good at, what people know and love us for and understanding who we are without it is a beautiful journey to embrace. 🌵

This may be the consequence of their behavior.

This beauty 🌳

“ME” is all of your programming and conditioning. “ME” is your ego. “ME” is your personality. “ME” is your temper. “I” has never been hurt, attacked, or offended. All hurt is happening to your “ME”. Both mentally and physically. “I” watches your “ME”. But your “ME” cannot watch you “I”.

The Secret of Awareness by Jordan Williams

This is the one right here 🥰