Equine Blooming

Every day of my life, I feel a VAST colorful array of emotions☀️

And sometimes one color wins out 🌧️

Or I have a week like this one, with some awesome highs (took Faye on her first trail ride! Ate delicious cheesecake!), coupled with some deep sad blues (family health scares, big big grief).

But together, it is my life. It is messy, it’s unconventional, and it’s really, really, REALLY emotional. Those emotions lift me up, they lift my friends and family. And, they remind me what’s real, they point me back home, and they show me why I care. 🌈 ✨ 🍓

Loving someone with an eating disorder comes with a level of vulnerability and worry that often puts friendship on the back-burner.

That doesn’t change the fact that it can often be a very emotional and potentially confusing time for those on the outside.

I continue to learn so, so much from my friends, and I think they could write textbooks about how to be a friend to someone in recovery.

So if that’s what you need, ideas on how to support & how to love… I present to you- the 5 friendship lessons that saw me through my eating disorder recovery.

https://valiantrecovery.substack.com/p/how-to-be-a-friend-to-someone-in

I sit down to write & my mind goes blank. I sit down to write & I cry. The tears flow & they flow, a cascade from my heart to the world.

She left behind a girl. A girl so desperately in love with horses she will spend the rest of her life choosing them. A little girl who wanted nothing in the world so much as her own magical unicorn.

She has left me, but she hasn’t. Tattooed on my heart, in every breath I breathe.

And she left behind Faye. A bright star, a crescent moon 🌙. The balm to my soul & the hope for the future.

Together we are grieving. Together we are wishing. Together we are 💛