The Muffin Man

My precious sweet Baby, my soul mate, my best friend, partner, heart beat. Tomorrow marks 10 years. I cannot comprehend how I have made it this long without you. My life doesn't look like the same life you left me at. I am more patient, grey headed, realizing happiness comes from within--not from others, they are all gone...you would be shocked and dismayed.

This year I hope to learn "eloquent silence"... just listen more. I am sorry for lots of things. Often I hope you can hear me tell you I'm sorry, I love and miss you...I hope you can feel my sorrow and love, joy, quietude, happiness, desire to see you again, some day. I miss you, my dear husband and friend. But I will put that back in the background of my life and keep going forward. It's the only way I can take each new step.

God told me, just last week, I must let go of the grief, not just hide it. He will have to show me how.

Hugging my memories of you, and us...may I get through tomorrow with grace and a smile, somehow.

Xoxoxo 💔

Love you Muffin Man more every day, and always❤