Daley Practice

Two years ago today I held my firstborn in my arms for the first and last time. She was and always will be our light amongst the dark!

A glimpse of my diary, as I reflect back on this day

“On Aug 10th, 2022, Aurora Blue entered earth side. The most beautiful, calm and delicate piece of me I’ve ever seen. I could tell she stayed to meet us, grant us as much time as she could gather the strength to. I starred at her, for nearly an hour straight, taking in every subtle part of her. She wore a full set of hair dirty blonde and what looked like waves starting already. A strong forehead like her papa with a beautiful heart shaped birth mark center over her third eye, similar to mine. Her eyes stayed closed but a glimpse radiated through showing us a dark blue rim with lighter blue inside, a combination of both my partner and I. Her nose was just like mine with the checks to match, and possessed Papa’s lips and chin to seal the package. Her ears were a bit smooched from the placenta but Papa raised his hand to familiarizing them to his. The midwife questioned who shared her unique long feet, with a large gap between the big and first toes. Once again with a smile on his face Papa proudly accepted his contribution. Bringing joy to my heart, I never realized how unique his feet were until I saw them in her and now I will continue to see her every time I see his feet. She spent just under an hour with us until she took her last breath.”

Our lives forever changed the moment she entered and she continues to guide us long our new path.

“I love you baby girl, Happy heavenly birthday!”

- Nestled in Water -

I’ve been nestled in the lessons of water for quite some time. Perhaps if I look back it’s probably been at least a decade. I’ve been drawn to water in many forms; physically, spiritually and energetically. This tightly weaved connection continue to strengthen the trust inside myself, my intuition & truth, and allowed me to explore many fears. But as this years seasons change, I reflect the change in my internal system, and feel ready to utilize this highly developed trust. And so I follow my inner callings to share more of myself, my vulnerable experiences, so that they may help others navigate their world around them too.

My journey to motherhood has been a major process & balance of grief. Grieving not only the lives that were lost along the way but a grieving of self, who I was, what I wanted to become and who I am becoming. I cherish all these parts of myself and honour the divine process that has brought me to my present moment, but it hasn’t been as joyous as I would have imagined.

This new era of becoming, growing and expanding into the newest version of myself is exciting yet unfamiliar. However, I promise to continue to nourish it, trust in it and be vulnerable to shed, so that I too continue to bud, blossom and grow as the environment around me does as well.

As the weeks and month ahead unravels, I’ll be sharing more of my recent experiences, my journey which landed me right here and trying new ways of expression along the path. I appreciate your support, your kindness & grace as I a leap into the unknown.

Photo credit: - thank you for capturing these very special moments! 😘